Rain

James dominated weather.
I need to do another post to catch up with him.
I have some cloud macros
but I was saving them for everythingisfantastic
but maybe I should post them here.
But even if I do post them
it might not be enough.
I have been trying to be disciplined
about saving material for everythingisfantastic.
I don't know.
The last few days have been bad.
The weather has also been bad.
Usually I like the rain.
When I was little
when it rained
I would go out to the backyard
and lie under the table
and read my book
and listen to the rain around me.
Now I just feel lonely.
I am not allowed to say sad things to my friends.
H doesn't want to be my friend anymore.
R isn't here.
It is cold.
There is a black box inside my chest.
I drop things into it and they disappear.
Everything is gradually disappearing.
All that is left is the rain.
The table is gone
and my face is wet.